Dreaming Trees and Minds

katecolleen asked: WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE!? I miss you on tumblr, and in real life too.

I KNOWWWW :( I get to see you tomorrow though!! :D :D

I need to start making time for this again… 

Life’s Got a Sense of Humor

So I have some super important things happening right now. They’re not 100% yet, so I won’t talk about it yet. Only a few people know about it :)

Despite my efforts of applying to over 40, yes, over 40 places for a job, I have yet to hear back from a SINGLE one. How is that even possible? Jokes on me, because I would think SOMEONE would want to hire me. I desperately need a job. I super, super broke. I’ve gotta start paying car insurance again soon and before I know it it’ll be summer and I’ve gotta find a job where ever I’m going to be. Fingers are still crossed.

On a lighter note….

I went to the movies with my Grandma yesterday. We saw “The Artist” and it was interesting. Considering that it was a silent/black and white film and it kept my interest, I was impressed! We got pizza after, which was soooo delicious.  

Steve left today to play some shows down south. I’m super pumped for him. I wish I could go, but I know he’ll have tons of fun. Hopefully meet some people too. 14 days <3

Well I’m off to go shopping with Grandma and Mom soon. Hopefully my next post will be great news.

I can’t think of anything catchy to close with,

Joanna

Oh Hello There

I’ve been neglecting this little blog of mine. Stupid school work. 

So, today was a pretty good day for the most part. I was able to go on a run again outside because of the beautiful weather we’ve had for the past 2 days. The only thing that sucked was about 30 minutes in the temperature dropped and the wind picked up so my ears were bugging out. My roommate came with me too, which was really, really nice. Sometimes when I run with people I actually get annoying, for absolutely no reason. I guess it’s because I’m competitive and I start to create my own race in my head, like I have to win or something. But with Sam, I really didn’t feel that way. It was nice to have a workout buddy. It really motivates you, ya know? I always workout alone. 

For the past couple days I’ve really been trying to get myself back into eating really healthy. Over the summer, I got myself back into shape and lost like 15 lbs so I’ve been determined to lose more or at least stay where I am during the school year. It’s really hard though. Between cafeteria food, being broke to have healthy food in my room, and being so busy, I barely have time to think let alone think about healthy eating. But today I ate a salad, half of a buffalo chicken panini, pumpkin soup (which would’ve been pretty good, except the sushi place I went to put whipped cream in it because I guess they didn’t have regular cream), avocado roll and a salmon roll made with brown rice. I felt really good about that…which make me feel better about all the terrible food I ate this past weekend!

Weight has always been a secret issue of mine. I can always talk about that in another entry. 

So, what did I take away from today you may ask? Well I’d have to go with sushi is delicious, running when it’s cold hurts, but isn’t bad when you’re with a friend and whipped cream in pumpkin soup sucks.

The End.

Strangeness

So today has been a rather weird today. Last night I pretty much didn’t sleep. I’m really not sure why. I kept waking up and when I would wake up, I’d be totally exhausted, almost as if I hadn’t been asleep. 

I’ve also had this really strange feeling in my stomach all day. Kind of like anxiety, but I have nothing to be anxious about. Sometimes when I get a gut feeling like this I get a stomach bug which I’m praying isn’t the case. I’d rather it just be another weird moment where I have anxiety for no reason. 

Because I felt like this all day, I decided I was going to go to yoga. So I looked online at the place I always go to, because they have community classes and I only have to pay like a dollar to go, and I found out that they were actually having a meditation class. I was thrilled. So I packed myself up and headed over…only to get there, put my donation in a box, and then find out that the schedule online is totally wrong. I figured this isn’t a good sign. 

I have this constant feeling lately that there are about to be some really big changes in my life. Within the next year or so. I’m going to have to make some really tough decisions and I really don’t know if I’m ready to make them yet. It totally sucks to grow up. I want to go back to where I would complain that I had to memorize time tables. I don’t want to complain about where I’m moving to when I graduate, what I want to do for the rest of my life, who I surround myself with, when to make the big decision of moving in with someone…It all comes really fast at me and I think about it all the time. My mind constantly races. But I know this and I always have to calm myself down and take one thing at a time. I’m just a really big ball of contradiction. I’m layed back, don’t care what anyone thinks, walk my own path, but I’m always worried and thinking about something. I just don’t, or at least try, to tell anyone.

On lighter news, I’m going to go figure out what I want to eat for dinner.